Feel so much better after talking to her. i act strong try not to think bout it(yeah actually i hardly think bout her anymore) but sometimes i dread tat i can talk to her talk normal stuff like we used to do. but i dont i wanna keep the distance cause there is no point in doing tat. i see her on9 and i wait for her to talk i know she wont cause dont want to disturb me (at-least tat wat i think).
i feel the urge to talk but i dont cause i dont wan to disturb her too.

but today i talked after a long long time feel so much better. i cant believe tat its already been a year since e breakup. i gotta agree tat signal-hood is fun. no need to worry about things u just live your way. i dont even remember when was the 1yr breakup anniversary lol fail la still call it anniversary.. until she reminded me.

now i think back how ironic it is. back then i used to remember all the dates. the day i told her tat i like her than day of our first break up, the day of patch back, the day of second break up, the day of second patch back and many more of those. but toward the end it all changed it stopped caring about all this things i was so pissed. she would not remember all tis dates back then. but now she is one who remembers the dates. i was shocked to know tat she remembered it.

she said gg bb and i am like so fast bb
shes like fast ??
and i am like i mean so fast go off
and shes like yeah gotta go study
and i am like yeah study hard tc


hmm see hers the thing (must say in the travis mccoy voice from the beginning of e song clothes off) with a mutual break up. when a couple break up due to some problem they hate each other and they dotn wanna talk. but when u end because u know it might not work out or dont have time due to work/school etc. u end it in a mutual breakup. and tats damn weird cause u dont hate the person but u dont feel like talking to them either. so is it better if u end up in a ugly way. hmm maybe in a long term yeah cause u wont have tat feeling tat i might have worked did i hake the correct decision. i dont regret on my decision i feel tat it was little to much... but yeah still feel a lot better after talking:D

the time between starting to like a girl and till you tell her you feelings is awesome.....


dont to conclusions in am not in love(even thought i want to be lol) just watched a awesome show called "Hear Me" its in chinese with eng. sub.

feel like talking so maybe i will write it out.

year 2 has been wonderful loads of work. but exciting work. with awesome results in the end. been realizing tat i have keep on talking a lot to my self. i like it. i dont mind not going out after school(live v used to do in year 1) i like the way i stay back in studio do work slack have some crazy times than keep on doing work.

studio look awesome now. really like it.

i feel a quietness in me. something tat i love. learning things thru experiences is so nice. v make our own choices. v start to see the wrong and write and we come up wit are own views tats so rewarding. hope great will it be if there were school where u were not taught the normal way. lesson are not in classrooms but outdoors. instead of the teacher teaching you she just guides you. every thing you learn is thru experience. i am thankful to god tat i am able to learn in the same way.

some how everything happens for a reason, never i had imagined tat i would be studying interior design here in singapore. everything from coming here to sg, to going thru sec. school and o levels and than to a poly was never planed. it just happened.

i think there is reason we(year 2 class mates) are here. all the ppl we meet in our life has a reason behind it. v learn a lot form each other.
if we filter of all the irrelevant stuff all tat is left is the good stuff
tis few days i dont feel like sleeping early i feel tat there is something missing and i keep on finding it when there no school work pushing me, but so far i dont even have a faint hint of wats missing. i only realized it after i typed it out.

ohhhh so much stuff happened.. dint even realized tat it almost the end of the holidays. enjoyed every single min. of the time spent at STPI. tis is wat i quoted on FB "Gonna miss everyone from STPI if i could i would work for more longer. we become friends so fast and one of the best places i have worked sofar.learnt a lot from everyone(specially mother plucker) got to know more ppl and made a lot good friends.i am gonna miss plucking,venice break,mashpotato workshop,and most of all gonna miss the PLUCKERS.really miss u all and hope to see u all soon" and i mean every word i said. never have i felt so connected ppl who i dint even know a month ago... its was just different some how everyone tat came in shared something in common and shared so much know knowledge.

Its just been awesome awesome for the past 4 days. i am suppose to be tired form working and stuff but no i am not everyday i fell more and more fresh and happy. i donno y but i guess its the whole good Vibe in STPI. its like i am not working but learning and never i have been so happy to learn and i am actually felling like learning more there are so many things to be explored... its like i am *eating breathing and sleeping design*.

hmmm how does it fell to have no money to buy something u really want.... i fell sad, browsing thru cameras online looking at IT show adv. to make my self fell better. i might just not earn enough to get the camera i want, but lets just see how things work out. :( i really wanted it before

sup yeah ironic that i only got time to post on valentines day haha tat explains everything(about not posting for about a month) well anyways it Vday and yeah aint no felling sad. in fact i am quiet normal(should i be acting abnormal???? huh???)

OH YEAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welcome Twenty-ten* hope tis year is gonna be a great year..

well so how did i celebrated my 31st... haha yeah alone since everyone was busy and had the planed the 31st earlier:D its good to see ppl celebrate new year wit there family and friends.... well for me i totally felt like i was on my own. i mean i was but yah.

i am not tat sort of person who will sit at home and get bored i mean nothing wrong wit going out alone. u get to know ur self better and when u have a camera wit u than no worries about company. i mean i totally enjoy going out wit my camera....

so wat i did today???

well to start off the day and as a reward to myself i got the totally awesome uber cool 1950's ttv camera. really really really happy to own it:D its all the way from france even thought it was produced in england.


i decided to watch Avatar (3D) cause seats in bulk where never available and perfect to for me to catch it before it goes off e cinema.... well well i remember saying tat wtf is tis(avatar) when i saw the trailer. than when i heard tat its been making for 10yrs i was holy cow tats gotta be something..... welll yes its was awesome i mean the amount of detail tat is put in is just awesome.i felt 3hrs was still short for the movie i wanted it to be longer lol.


to all e ppl who haven't watched it yet. go and catch it before its gone. watch it in 3D totally worth it.

OHH yah had my lunch at the Kopitiam at PS the indo food there is awesome they had long queue outside the stall.....





movie was at 5pm so in between i went to sunshine plaza to get film. got a 120mm for my new cam:D guy at thirtysix36 was nice. good customer service :D

haha having fun on the way back to PS






































lol tis guy was weird he was wearing weird looking shades and was walking a bit funny so i decided to snap a pic. when i saw the pic on my comp i was like damn tats funny wth was tat guy doing in the middle of the road.

then came back to ps watched movie again awesome show haha.















when i came out i was amazed by the lights(decoration). i went until orchard central to take pictures:D.. walked back to ps donnow y when i could have just took a bus from orchard central. haha got my self a caramel frap.






took 14 to suntec city and walked to esplanade omg the area there full of security and its ultra crowded. i entered the area inside esplanade and to my surprise. there where huge groups of ppl sitting on the floor i mean the whole area was covered wit ppl. i was like damn cant even take a decent shot. so decide to go back home cause after midnight the trains gonna be overloaded......







btw full moon today they say it happens only once in 19 yrs so the last time it happened was when i was born :D



Full album at>>>http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=135356&id=812790797&l=89f4bcadcc


tis happens to me a lot of time when walking my eyes meet wit someones eyes and tats for a split second i always wonder wats going on in tat persons mind during tat split second?


btw new year resolution... i know wats it ready.... i am going to try to be more open minded open to more crazy ideas. try to enjoy more hopefully find a GF and appreciate the little things:D

and yah once again Happy New Year to everyone.let us all hope tat Twenty-Ten will be be a wonderful and romantic year for everyone..

went down to thieves market for the first time. lol my dad had asked me not to go there haha its kinda scary but they have like allll the stuff there lol.... went also for a mini photo session wit my old $5 semi-digi cam. lol nice experience:D
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=135009&id=812790797&l=da8b05c73d


been thinking about new year resolutions. but seriously nothing coming to my mind. dont wanna sound cheesy or despo. but really hopeing to find some one nice. cause i am not liking the e way it is now:( i want someone who i can talk to. its not tat i dont have friends its just tat i need someone who i can be me,the crazy me ,the funny me,the serious me,:(


tmr will try to post my new year resolutions hopefully by tmr i know wat i need to do for next year.

OMG i finally dreamed after so many months ahhhhhhhhh its just awesome to be back to normal lol yeahhh!!! :D haha chilli u know who it is lol:D

i just dont know wats needed to be done. i feel more and more tat i am trying not to find wats bothering me cause i kinda know wats bothering me. but i dont want to start thinking about tat.

wat do u think i there a time set in future for thing to happen. i cant even concentrate on one thing while thinking to write tis. u know wat does tat suggest. well if i knew the answer to tat i wont be like tis now...............

suddenly staring at blank space it weird. and suddenly stopping and staring at ur screen but ur actually not staring at the screen. ur lost within ur self. does tat happen to u. wat does it mean.

dwelling in the past* after i read it on larry's FB its being repeating in backoff my head continually.

some times i feel like tat it will go on for ever.


there was tis bench tat i wanted to show u but not i stopped visiting it. but i have always imagined of showing it to u and trying to visualize the expression on ur face.

when i was young i was certain of wat going to happen i was foolish , now everything's uncertain.

ohhhhhh yeahhhhhh !!!! hahaha felt likei talked to u(my ex) after zillion years lol even if it was like after 4-5 months but still yeah. the whole day was not really a perfect day dint really felt tat happy even thought v made cool structures in school, even the train and bus ride home i was zoned out. lol and when i came on9 i saw ur name at the ppl online column of my yahoo email web-page. i was like wooooooooo!!!!!!! haha i am actually screaming woooo!!!! now lol wah suddenly not such a bad day anymore.. haha :D

hmm to e ppl reading tis yeah u!!!! u know who ur are. haha yeah u all tis does not mean i am going back with my ex ok lol

btw it would be awesome if a ticket to mumbai would fall down form the sky. its winter and yeah wat a great time to visit i bet i will be the happiest guy :D


I am just on the other side of the Ferris wheel

isn't it surprising how life changes so fast. changes happen and v try to adapt. but they say in order to get wat u want u must resist the change if its taking away wat u want. but than i want to resist it, but i don't have the power to study and do tis both at e same time. i feel i am going were the flow is taking me. they say fight for wat u want i say is it worth, even thought u know its not meant for u..... but humans are complicated characters, sometimes they will do things which they know will hurt em.

now i start to see things even without dreaming. shall i call tis a good thing or something bad cause i would love to sleep and dream. i just feel so sad within, yet there are things tat make me happy..... i feel tat i am doing my assignments cause i need to do em i give em my 100% but my hearts not in it..

even thought there is nothing wrong now i just feeling the lack of<3....

i am not thinking about anyone, its kinda weird to me cause.... i have never been tis way there was always tat someone to think of... right now only thing tats on my mind are assignments...

*when v see the light v let go of the darkness. only the unfortunate find tat light was like a mirage in a desert.*

^^^tis is something tat i thought off. today and i think its cool it just came to my mind..... maybe i will try to come up wit some art work wit related to tis..

if u dont understand the quote above feel free to ask me, will be more than happy to explain it to u :D

never do any HW over the weekend hais just dont have the mood to work....

friday went to watch paranormal activity.. hmmm the movie ok ok la not tat great not tat bad somewhere in between.......

saturday was fun, first time eating steam boat..... celebrated yiqi's 18th bday :D
when to flea mania and fashionista 5 flea none of em were good :( than had starbuck went to FEP chilli yiqi and jess. got temp.tats on there necks lol :D

hmm lazy to upload pics. check FB for pics
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=125262&id=812790797&l=3737d361f8


is missing someone u dont even know weird

was it a coincidence!!!!!

i was getting off the bus near my house when i saw a girl reading the Romance vol.2 (btw i am reading vol.1 lol) i was like wow!!!

than she got down at e same stop as me than i thought she was behind me walking but when i turned around she was not there lol. than happen to take same lift. lol wat a coincidence right??? same bus same stop same book same lift same block lol........... btw i dint really saw her face well... ahhh fool of me lol...

haha isn't it fun when stuff like tis happens, cuts u off ur daily routine and make u wonder:D ... btw i am really enjoying Romance vol.1.... i like to read books cause they make me think. and i especially like love stories cause they somehow make me happy and some times makes me wonder....
but its the feeling of realizing something is great!!!!!!!!! :D

been busy wit school work, work load keeps on coming in like free stuff.....

Saturday was awesome best skimming session so far really caught great waves.




hmm yesterday went to watch 2012 wit bel,chilli,yiqi,jess,xue ee,rachel.. nice movie hmmm not really like awesome but maybe cause i had high expectations but overall dint disappointing me:D

today went to Art friend to get material :D

hmm i bought a book today ROMANCE volume 1..... tis is the first time i bought a book and even though its kinda ex$20 for a local book i dont find it ex nor do i find it cheap. its just like i cant see e price i just want to read it... i am changing!!!!!!


wanted to write tis but happend to talk to bel about it so i am jsut gonna post the conversation.

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:38:34 PM)
hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey

The curly hair guy says: (10:38:43 PM)
hieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

The curly hair guy says: (10:38:44 PM)
lol

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:38:51 PM)
hahah

The curly hair guy says: (10:39:08 PM)
lol watz up wit the hey's haha

The curly hair guy says: (10:39:13 PM)
wat time u reached?

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:39:43 PM)
hmmmm

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:39:45 PM)
i think about 10

The curly hair guy says: (10:40:51 PM)
ohhh i reached at 10.15 and in e train i was ready e book than i dint knew tat jurong east came than when a lot of ppl got out i was huh where am i lol than i rushed out

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:41:29 PM)
hows the book?

The curly hair guy says: (10:42:12 PM)
so far its good i just like the fact they it opens up ur mind and than u start to look at things in diff. prespective

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:42:26 PM)
cool

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:42:27 PM)
haha

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:42:33 PM)
someone in love uh*

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:42:33 PM)
hahaha

The curly hair guy says: (10:45:34 PM)
lol nope i am not in love , i think i have changed from wat i used to be last time when i liked someone i would be so bothered by it... but than i just dont feel the same way, lol and btw right now there is no one who i think i will have a crush on lol..

The curly hair guy says: (10:46:23 PM)
its just tat after reading these books i feel so happy...

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:49:20 PM)
thats great to hear:)

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:49:42 PM)
yknow, sometimes i feel, its better to have crushes then to be in a relationship

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:49:46 PM)
dont you agree

The curly hair guy says: (10:52:08 PM)
hmmm i not really la i a way having crush is fun i mean the mystrey of not knowing if the person like u or not is fun in a way.. but than i rather be in a relation cause....

The curly hair guy says: (10:52:22 PM)
hmmm i really dont know wats after cause

The curly hair guy says: (10:53:10 PM)
i just i dont know wats relationship is it the comittment or is it the time v spend together

The curly hair guy says: (10:54:55 PM)
ppl are so botherd by the fact tat ur not commited i mean as long u are enjoying the company than everythings good... but yeah trust is one big thing....

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:55:40 PM)
kinda true:)

christabel--@hotmail.com says: (10:55:49 PM)
just enjoy life to the fullest:)
The curly hair guy says: (10:56:18 PM)
yeah shit happens in between but than remember the good things..





Is it possible to miss someone u dont know

oooo busy day!!!! LIZ thanks for the gift i like it :D . so basically i meet her tis morning at lakeside mrt. she gave me my bday gift :D.. than she took the same train as me since she was going to bishan soo good i got company to school... and even better she came to school eat mac breakfast :D lol i was late to meet bel at class haha but its really been long since i really meet liz.. was nice to catch up wit old friend :D......

hmmm than she left at 10.30 and i went to class and then form there onwards its all work been really working on my stage design.... everyone seemed so stressed and rushing for work....

ahhh saw her on todays daily inspiration on abduzeedo.... ooo aint she pretty hahhahaha same glasses :D {beautiful eyes}