Feel so much better after talking to her. i act strong try not to think bout it(yeah actually i hardly think bout her anymore) but sometimes i dread tat i can talk to her talk normal stuff like we used to do. but i dont i wanna keep the distance cause there is no point in doing tat. i see her on9 and i wait for her to talk i know she wont cause dont want to disturb me (at-least tat wat i think).
i feel the urge to talk but i dont cause i dont wan to disturb her too.

but today i talked after a long long time feel so much better. i cant believe tat its already been a year since e breakup. i gotta agree tat signal-hood is fun. no need to worry about things u just live your way. i dont even remember when was the 1yr breakup anniversary lol fail la still call it anniversary.. until she reminded me.

now i think back how ironic it is. back then i used to remember all the dates. the day i told her tat i like her than day of our first break up, the day of patch back, the day of second break up, the day of second patch back and many more of those. but toward the end it all changed it stopped caring about all this things i was so pissed. she would not remember all tis dates back then. but now she is one who remembers the dates. i was shocked to know tat she remembered it.

she said gg bb and i am like so fast bb
shes like fast ??
and i am like i mean so fast go off
and shes like yeah gotta go study
and i am like yeah study hard tc


hmm see hers the thing (must say in the travis mccoy voice from the beginning of e song clothes off) with a mutual break up. when a couple break up due to some problem they hate each other and they dotn wanna talk. but when u end because u know it might not work out or dont have time due to work/school etc. u end it in a mutual breakup. and tats damn weird cause u dont hate the person but u dont feel like talking to them either. so is it better if u end up in a ugly way. hmm maybe in a long term yeah cause u wont have tat feeling tat i might have worked did i hake the correct decision. i dont regret on my decision i feel tat it was little to much... but yeah still feel a lot better after talking:D

the time between starting to like a girl and till you tell her you feelings is awesome.....


dont to conclusions in am not in love(even thought i want to be lol) just watched a awesome show called "Hear Me" its in chinese with eng. sub.

feel like talking so maybe i will write it out.

year 2 has been wonderful loads of work. but exciting work. with awesome results in the end. been realizing tat i have keep on talking a lot to my self. i like it. i dont mind not going out after school(live v used to do in year 1) i like the way i stay back in studio do work slack have some crazy times than keep on doing work.

studio look awesome now. really like it.

i feel a quietness in me. something tat i love. learning things thru experiences is so nice. v make our own choices. v start to see the wrong and write and we come up wit are own views tats so rewarding. hope great will it be if there were school where u were not taught the normal way. lesson are not in classrooms but outdoors. instead of the teacher teaching you she just guides you. every thing you learn is thru experience. i am thankful to god tat i am able to learn in the same way.

some how everything happens for a reason, never i had imagined tat i would be studying interior design here in singapore. everything from coming here to sg, to going thru sec. school and o levels and than to a poly was never planed. it just happened.

i think there is reason we(year 2 class mates) are here. all the ppl we meet in our life has a reason behind it. v learn a lot form each other.
if we filter of all the irrelevant stuff all tat is left is the good stuff
tis few days i dont feel like sleeping early i feel tat there is something missing and i keep on finding it when there no school work pushing me, but so far i dont even have a faint hint of wats missing. i only realized it after i typed it out.

ohhhh so much stuff happened.. dint even realized tat it almost the end of the holidays. enjoyed every single min. of the time spent at STPI. tis is wat i quoted on FB "Gonna miss everyone from STPI if i could i would work for more longer. we become friends so fast and one of the best places i have worked sofar.learnt a lot from everyone(specially mother plucker) got to know more ppl and made a lot good friends.i am gonna miss plucking,venice break,mashpotato workshop,and most of all gonna miss the PLUCKERS.really miss u all and hope to see u all soon" and i mean every word i said. never have i felt so connected ppl who i dint even know a month ago... its was just different some how everyone tat came in shared something in common and shared so much know knowledge.

Its just been awesome awesome for the past 4 days. i am suppose to be tired form working and stuff but no i am not everyday i fell more and more fresh and happy. i donno y but i guess its the whole good Vibe in STPI. its like i am not working but learning and never i have been so happy to learn and i am actually felling like learning more there are so many things to be explored... its like i am *eating breathing and sleeping design*.

hmmm how does it fell to have no money to buy something u really want.... i fell sad, browsing thru cameras online looking at IT show adv. to make my self fell better. i might just not earn enough to get the camera i want, but lets just see how things work out. :( i really wanted it before

sup yeah ironic that i only got time to post on valentines day haha tat explains everything(about not posting for about a month) well anyways it Vday and yeah aint no felling sad. in fact i am quiet normal(should i be acting abnormal???? huh???)