i am happy tat i was able to hide the hurt under a smile atleast i dint act like ajerk...
i dont know how i managed to bring tat smile but i just did it.. i was surprised wit my self cause .. hmm i donno how to say it was so instantaneous i was laughing at myself even thought i knew i dint did anything wrong. its like ur in a war and u know u might lose it but all u can do is try ur best to win it :(



i guess tat laughter was something like tat when u laugh at someone helpless, but the only a thing was i was laughing at my own helplessness.... how sad it tat:(

hmm nothing really much to say cause the more i think the more it reminds of my helplessness... :(